Name:Jay Country:United States State:Texas Metro:Houston Gender:Male
Interests:hangin out wit friends, drawin, sports, listenin 2 music, and partyin! dats jus da overall stuff! basically, i do evrything and nything! Expertise:therapist, masseur, law enforcement, and scarin da hell out of ppl Occupation:Student Industry:Legal
so, its October!! my favorite month of the year!! Halloween is coming up soon and ive found a few AWESOME costumes!....but they are a tad bit expensive. The most awesomeness one i saw was like close to $270. it was absolutely insane and terrifying....so perfect!!
classes are starting off as a real bummer...grades are sorta low cause i cant seem to find myself to study...im sorta losing my motivation for school or i must have a serious carious of ADD cause i cant focus on a book anywhere i go....but its sorta funny.
so on other news...ever since the start of this semester, ive made awesome new friends. its so kool and relaxing to hang with em everyday! havnt really laughed and smiled with so many people in quite some time... it feels nice to see so many smile. i guess i will dedicate this post to yall.
hahaha i can forsee a few things that will be coming soon enough
well i guess ill hit yall up lata...sorry i didnt write much, my mind is wandering around, so yea. take it easy
wooww..... should i say welcome back into my life? haha after a year gap, what is really suppose to happen? hahahahaha i want to laugh so hard that i dont feel my lungs. i find that i put myself in a pathetic state of mind just literally because of nothing.... yet on the other hand, i feel that i need to think over about who i really am because of you.....because of you, i have found that i am at fault for everything i have done in my life.....shows me that i was never really the person i wanted to be or the person i thought i could be.... i cant believe i lived my life like that..... hahahaha i dont know whether to thank you or some else for showing me another perspective.....and you didnt even do anything.....that makes it look so bad for me. also, i cant help feel the way i do, just to add onto the confusion and chaos in my mind. makes me wonder as to what will happen this semester and what happen throughout that year?? being as to who i usually am or who i think i am, i cant get you off my mind and what happened... i already feel that im going down a path i shouldnt be taking and that will lead me to a even worse state of mind than before...but i guess it doesnt matter, huh?.....i guess im starting to enjoy my own sufferage and starting point to my own oblivion i deserve it, lol
so yea...you know what...i really miss saying that greeting. it was always fun to do so. life is alright, it keeps going. the only thing that bothers me is my mind cause every once in a while, i'm stuck in a loop of a certain moment or time period. my memories tend to relapse to those certain times and i am forced to think that exact moment. it would be out of the blue and a spark inside of my head would trigger my mind to see that moment. they say it is best to "remember the past and do not repeat history" or "forget the past and look forward to the future." Either way, time is repeated and relapsed one way or the other. if you remember history, your generation skips the mistakes but future generations will make them, but if you look forward to the future without looking back, you are bound to make the same mistakes. but to continue on, i am always thinking and always thinking too much or too little. many people have always told me not to think to much or over-think the situation.my mind tends to relapse or keep thinking as a reflex action. i am always thinking of so many things; many of which is random yet so questioning, such as imagining another person's perspective or believe in words i have read or been told about. other times i tend to think of serious moments, such as what to do with my life, where am i going, what to do with every problem i see, and what will happen when i die. when i have moments when i think of something beyond serious (such as a recent time, when i was going to ask ace a Serious q), i tend to forget at the worst of times. questions keep coming forth, and many people tend to give me answers...but there are times when it just does not feel like its the answer i am looking for. i keep constantly looking for it to the point i am exhausted and confused and my mind is completely worn out. similar to a photographic memory, my mind only seems to remember the questions and more useless stuff. i feel like i have to travel millions of miles or wait Many years just to get a simple answer.
on other news, college is dull. a new year and not much is happening except that we will definitely obtain a new president (first black or first female) that will be written down in history which i can say i lived through. Many people fear economy might turn into another dust bowl era. it is also funny how good people try so hard to get some of the simplest things and they try with all their might, but no matter what, they still cannot seem to get it. they still keep trying even though it ends in failure. they know it is not possible, so why? why keep going after things that will not ever be. times like these seem so pointless. well i do not know. i have so many things i want to say but i cant seem to say, so i guess i will keep that for for another night. take care
its been a long time since i've written in here, but i always check it out. So, don't think i dont ever be on here or read these posts. Well, first semester of college is over, and as said before..."School will always be school." It has been a drag since leaving HP. I mean I have more time, but what is the use of it when there is nothing to do. Well, i got my bro Ron to thank for keep days interesting, haha. Well, I hope all yalls semester and finals were aight. Im also surprised that i got Bs in all my classes. I was like "WOAH!!" didnt know i could make grades like those...makes me wonder what could i have done at other schools.
So, on other news...I have gone through lots of thinking of my life, so I have created a 3-stage major life project. yep yep yep. The first stage is that I plan on making either a show or a Movie...something maybe funny, action, iunno we shall see what comes up, but ill post it on a video website, just in case youtube cant hold it. (OH, does anyone know a good special effects program, besides After Effect?) The other stages of my life project will be hush hush til future time. I am hoping that these 3 stages can preoccupy my time and keep my mind off other things. But yea, I just want to share Rons and mine creation with yall.
But Im not sure what else to talk about or what else to say, yall have any Q's, feel free to ask. check yall lata!! cya
its so kool and relaxing to hang with em everyday! havnt really laughed and smiled with so many people in quite some time... it feels nice to see so many smile. i guess i will dedicate this post to yall. 
